Social life

Okay so the main reason for the lack of updates; social life. Not that it is the biggest one out there, it is just that it has kept me from writing because it has left me exhausted to the level where I could fall asleep standing. Having a constant cold doesn't help either (I really should go and get that checked.)

Not a lot has happened lately. Apart from the same old, wake up, work, sleep and press a few lunch dates and evening meet ups in. Not that I mind in the slightest. Most of this terms holiday dates are set as well so now I have the opportunity to start planning around those as well. It all leaves me very excited.

What doesn't leave me all too excited though is what happens when my year here is up. I am already halfway through and I don't really want to think about what will happen when I am done. I will not stay another year, I have promised myself that, I need to go elsewhere. Just where? I want to keep on moving, and will not move back home. If I do move back to Sweden it will not be to the same hole that I left, because of all too many reasons to ignore.

I will however have to, within the next week preferably, do the following:

• Look into programs at schools in Sweden for next year.
• Look into living where said schools are.
• Look into pro's and con's for studying here vs. studying in Sweden.
• Look into pro's and con's for working vs. studying.
• Actually figure out what I want to do with my life.

Once again back to routines

Christmas and NYE holidays were a blessing but it feels good being back to the routines. I didn't actually think that I would miss sending kids off to school and making meals, giving rides to practices and swimming lessons, but I do. And it feels going back back.

This year I am planning on seeing more of London. Not just staying in my little Northern London-bubble, but actually get around a bit and since I have my long periods of time off during the day, I really do have a golden opportunity, I just need a bit of a carrot for getting away from the comfortableness off staying in the area.

I will also be volunteering at a local charity shop as a part of #OneMillionHours set up by BBC Radio 1, which I am very excited about. Several concerts and  events are already planned, along with visits from people I hold dear. I am feeling very positive towards this spring, and I hope it doesn't pass as quickly as people say it usually does.

Partly because I don't really want to leave, but also because I don't really know what to do afterwards. I want to study, but I also want to move on, travel somewhere else and see what that place has to offer. But all of that for another day she says as she postpones it for the seventh time this week.

Hiatus over

Okay, there never was a hiatus, just a lazy-ass blogger.

To be honest, I totally meant to write several posts during Christmas and New Years, but I never got around to even opening the laptop. I brought it back home with me, but never actually used it.

So first off, I went home - again. This time my sister did not know a single thing about it and surprising her was the best Christmas gift I could ever have gotten. Along with the well needed money that my parents handed me on Christmas Eve. There was not a single flake of snow in sight and I had a cold from hell, but it did not really matter seeing as I got to spend my sacred holiday with my family and best friend. It was truly awesome. The dogs were beside themselves this time as well (even more than the first time I dare say, which is strange because you'd think that they'd be happier about seeing me after 4 months, rather than 10 days).

And even though I was very happy to be back home, arriving on Dec 23rd might not have been the wisest thing. Why? Because the entire of UK decided to be at the North Terminal of Gatwick Airport at 8AM, flocking around Gate 14-16 were we had to be as well. So after having avoided getting our feet run over by several buggies, trolleys, suitcases on wheels and just people with big feet in general we managed to get to our gate only to have the flight delayed with an hour. Which might not sound too bad (compared to the flight to Bangkok that was supposed to leave at 8.45AM but was delayed until 9.05PM) but when all you really want to do is get home - yeah well. We were not beside ourselves.

Being home was nice though. 0% Christmas feelings and no snow, but it was nice.Vacation spent back home, it felt strange. And after four days, I slowly came to the realisation that I am perfectly fine with going back here, and perhaps not ever go back. I have grown too much to go back to living at home and four days with my family made me realise that. Although it was great seeing people you have missed it felt even better getting back here.

So after spending Christmas in Sweden, New Years in London felt like a really good idea. It was nowhere near as wild and outrageous as one might have hoped it would be but it was nice cause I had my girlfriend and my best friend on either side as it struck midnight and I don't think I have ever felt as content. Not only did we do some resolutions with friends back home, but we also got new resolutions done here and I have honestly never felt more confident in managing my resolutions than I do this year. Not because I feel like I have to, but because I feel like I actually want to this time and I think that weighs more than feeling the need to keep them.